6 whole weeks! My little baby is growing up! My how life has changed. I am finally settling into this new “me”…..mommy me that is. To be honest, it has been a bit of a harder transition than I expected. Life is totally and completely done a 180 for me. Where I once was working like crazy, meeting deadlines, and taking on more projects than I probably could handle…..I am now at home all day devoting 100% of my attention to the needs of my child. It’s not that i’m not working anymore, it’s just a new job entirely. It’s amazing and fulfilling and wonderful, but also a change that took some getting used to for me (along with a good amount of patience….something I don’t necessarily pride myself on).
I didn’t know how I would handle this change going into it….if I would miss creating art everyday and sitting behind a computer screen for hours upon end. I wondered if I would miss feeling productive at work, miss my freedom, or miss my alone time with my husband….or if this baby would replace all of those desires with new ones. I can now say : All of the above! For the first few weeks of Rylee being in my life, work was the last thing on my mind. All I wanted to do was get to know her and snuggle with her all day. Her snuggles are the BEST. But now that week 6 has come and gone, it’s time to prepare myself to dive back into work again. I knew this day would come….it just came AWFULLY fast! Although it will only be part time, Rylee is FULL time…..so I am trying to figure out what that will look like. I am lucky to have a job that allows me to work from home most of my days. But let’s be honest….when I’m home, all I want to do is be with her. So that poses a challenge. Fortunately, Rylee has the most amazing grandma who has offered to watch her while I head into the office 2 days a week. There is no one I trust more than my momma! So I know she will be in good hands. I am excited to get back to designing, but I know I will never accomplish as much as I used to when it was just me. As a mom, “ME” = “WE”. And as much as I love work, that other someone rules my world now, and she is much cuter than my computer screen.
When you become a mom, priorities shift and the things you once cared so much about, just don’t seem to matter in comparison to the role you play as a mother. The love I have for Rylee is like nothing I have ever felt before. It’s true that our lives will never be the same, but thank God for that. He’s blessed us with one that’s even greater having her a part of it.