So I went through all of today totally thinking it was Thursday. I mean, the WHOLE day! I swear, my concept of time was shot when I had a baby. I didn’t believe Sam when he corrected me that it was actually Friday night…I had to go look at the calendar to make sure. Ugh. I guess it goes to show you how exciting our ”friday nights” are these days. My oh my, so much has changed since our dating years! Haha….but I don’t mind it so much. Sam has been working extra late the last few weeks so it’s been a little lonely around the house. Just me and the little lady. My mom is out of town for the next two weeks too, which means not much is happening in the work department either. As you can see, Grandma directly effects my work/life “balance”. And I sure do miss her when she’s gone! I’ve been pushing 2am the last few nights just to keep up with things….and I’m starting to feel the effects!
A bit of honesty. I usually like to keep it light around here, but if i’m going to be honest, “lately” has been discouraging. I’m a sensitive soul and I don’t take criticism too well. I wish I had a tougher skin, and that I could brush things off my shoulders and not let it get to me. But it’s just not my nature. My feelings get hurt easily. No matter how many sweet and encouraging things people say….I always remember those negative ones. Here on this blog and in my “real” life, some things have been said that have bummed me out. Comments that leave me with an uneasy feeling and a knot in my stomach. I realize that having a blog, documenting personal style, and utilizing social media the way we can today, you make yourself vulnerable to negative feedback….but it’s hard, especially when it’s personal. I wonder how some people with huge blogs are able to tune out all the bad? It makes me worry that blogging is just maybe not for me. And yet here I go, being vulnerable again.
On the opposite spectrum of discouragement…sweet little Rylee is talking up a storm and cracking us up on the daily. If anyone can get me out of a funk, it’s her. She has her own little language that almost sounds like an auctioneer. It’s so fast and entirely gibberish….but the funniest thing i’ve ever heard! I can’t wait until those are actual sentences pouring out of her mouth. I’m not sure what we are in for with this one! As outgoing as she is with family, she is hitting that stage where she get’s super shy with strangers. When I get her around new faces, she nuzzles her head into my shoulder and peeks skeptically at them out of the corner of her eye. Part of me kind of loves this because she has never been a cuddler….and well, this is as close as I get! It still blows my mind that she is already one. I naively thought that my days would be long and lazy with a baby to take care of. Little did I know this year would be the fastest of my life. (and to think….they say it goes faster every year….i can’t even imagine). Although with her, the passage of time has never been so clearly documented. As I looked through old photos this afternoon of when she was 2 and 3 months old….I remembered those moments exactly, like they were yesterday. On one hand, it’s hard to remember my life without her….but on the other, it doesn’t seem real that those tiny little legs are now walking and those perfect little lips are now shouting my name. But yes, it’s real…..very real! And I love her more than ever.
- Life: I’ve been following Casey’s blog for a while now and am so inspired by her story and strength.
- Wishlist: More than obsessed with AMM geo earrings….and everything else in her shop for that matter.
- Heart Break: Tears were shed for someone I don’t even know…but I can’t imagine her pain. Photographer Jill Thomas tragically lost her 21 month old baby girl, Penny, this week. You can donate here to help cover funeral costs.
What/who are some of your current faves?
Have a wonderful weekend friends.