So a few days ago my computer decided to have a little hissy fit and break down on me just as I was getting caught up from my weekend away. (Hence the crickets over here this last week). With deadlines looming and hormones flying high….I couldn’t help but throw a little hissy fit myself. I mean, what is one to do without a computer these days!? Quite a reality check, to say the least. It’s amazing the importance I place on this piece of technology! Luckily, the fix was far easier than I imagined….but the last few days really opened my eyes to how attached I really am. If nothing else, it was a motivator to spend more time creating with my hands than staring at a computer screen. I remember a few years ago spending so much time in my garage, painting or drawing whatever I was inspired by. It was not for anyone, other than me. Now, those days are few and far between because I find myself focused on finishing commissioned projects that mostly rely on computer design programs. And while that’s ok….I do want to make an effort to get back to that place where I am away from the computer and creating art because I am inspired, not because I am hired. But that “hired” does equal money….and the “inspired”, not usually. So it’s a tough balance, but something I’ve been thinking about and hoping to change, even ever so slowly.
As I was going over some of the notes I jotted down during some of the talks at our design retreat last week, my favorite one read “just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.” This was in reference to a session Kathleen led, where she suggested we take what we are currently doing, and cut it in half. So instead of dabbling here and there and everywhere (because we can!)…we should only take on the things that we are inspired by, that are an appropriate match, and that help further our creative careers. Being so fresh to the freelance world, it’s hard to think this way because I want to take on everything that comes my way….but the reality is, I am just one person and I can only do so much. A good lesson learned.
The picture above is the current state of my office. Literally, nothing is in it other than my computer, which is sitting on my drawing table. But I am on the hunt for a desk! Suggestions!? We just removed the popcorn ceiling (thank God) which required us to remove EVERYTHING. We are painting tomorrow and I am giddy over having a clean slate and finally creating an inspiring space to work in! Cheers to weekend projects!
…and possibly some more pool time with my girl before Fall really decides to show up.