So it’s 2 AM as I am writing this post. Do you ever feel like you are running a million miles an hour and can’t catch a breath? That’s about me right now. It’s good things…promising opportunities, new exciting projects, website re-designs (ahem, mine!)….but boy is it taking a toll on my shut eye. I want nothing more than to press pause, but I won’t let myself. I can’t stand to see opportunities slip by. So here I am. 2 AM and finally getting to my blog. Husband sawing logs in bed and baby sleeping for what has been 6 hours now. Let me tell you. The girl is averaging 13-14 hours a night. If I could insert an emoticon it’d be that one with the two hands lifted to heaven (hallelujah, praise the Lord, dream baby, my hero).
Truth be told, I have been having the baby-sitter debate often as of late. Should I….or shouldn’t I? For now, I haven’t committed to the idea, but it’s been on my mind….a lot. I have the best mom in the world who lives 20 minutes away and will watch Rylee at the drop of a hat….but I can’t expect her to live her life around my schedule. As wonderful as that sounds. Sometimes I just feel like I need ONE MORE DAY. One more day in the week devoted solely to “catching up”. To answer all my emails, to tie up loose ends, to clean the house! Common ideal world, where are you hiding? Anyway, I’ll keep you posted as I wrestle with the idea of a sitter and chime in if you have any thoughts or experience or “there, there’s”.
All this busy talk is reminding me of this post Anna of In Honor of Design wrote a bit ago about how she has committed to going to bed at the same time as her husband, every night. For some reason, it keeps popping in my head and convicting me of my own unhealthy sleep habits. I can’t remember the last time Sam and I went to bed at the same time. Shamefully, it was probably pre-baby. I am realizing I am opening myself up to some judgement here….but it’s the honest truth. We still love each other, we just don’t fall asleep at the same time. But I wish that wasn’t the case. My “work time” is the 5 hours after Rylee goes to sleep for the night. It’s when I feel most creative, and really, the only time I have to focus, distraction free. Sam wakes up at an ungodly hour so he’s always in bed by 9:30…..so you can see the dilemma here. But it can’t be this way forever, can it? Well, it shouldn’t. I do think having a sitter for a few hours a couple days a week would help in this regard, but I’m also challenged to just “let it go” sometimes. To leave my to-do list for the next day (however scary that might be) and snuggle in with my hubby more often. I also loved Jodi’s post on the topic of time efficiency as well. I guess a lot of us are dealing with the same struggles!
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