BABY BEAR

6 whole weeks! My little baby is growing up!  My how life has changed.  I am finally settling into this new “me”…..mommy me that is.  To be honest, it has been a bit of a harder transition than I expected. Life is totally and completely done a 180 for me.  Where I once was working like crazy, meeting deadlines, and taking on more projects than I probably could handle…..I am now at home all day devoting 100% of my attention to the needs of my child.  It’s not that i’m not working anymore, it’s just a new job entirely.  It’s amazing and fulfilling and wonderful, but also a change that took some getting used to for me (along with a good amount of patience….something I don’t necessarily pride myself on).

I didn’t know how I would handle this change going into it….if I would miss creating art everyday and sitting behind a computer screen for hours upon end.  I wondered if I would miss feeling productive at work, miss my freedom, or miss my alone time with my husband….or if this baby would replace all of those desires with new ones.  I can now say : All of the above!  For the first few weeks of Rylee being in my life, work was the last thing on my mind.  All I wanted to do was get to know her and snuggle with her all day.  Her snuggles are the BEST.  But now that week 6 has come and gone, it’s time to prepare myself to dive back into work again.  I knew this day would come….it just came AWFULLY fast! Although it will only be part time, Rylee is FULL time…..so I am trying to figure out what that will look like.  I am lucky to have a job that allows me to work from home most of my days.  But let’s be honest….when I’m home, all I want to do is be with her.  So that poses a challenge.  Fortunately, Rylee has the most amazing grandma who has offered to watch her while I head into the office 2 days a week.  There is no one I trust more than my momma!  So I know she will be in good hands.  I am excited to get back to designing, but I know I will never accomplish as much as I used to when it was just me.  As a mom, “ME” = “WE”.  And as much as I love work, that other someone rules my world now, and she is much cuter than my computer screen.

When you become a mom, priorities shift and the things you once cared so much about, just don’t seem to matter in comparison to the role you play as a mother.  The love I have for Rylee is like nothing I have ever felt before.  It’s true that our lives will never be the same, but thank God for that.  He’s blessed us with one that’s even greater having her a part of it.

 

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  1. meghan

    this is so very very sweet, I’m sure both your mom and Rylee will enjoy reading this somedays. You inspire me with your passion and full life :)

    <3Meghan

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  2. carla

    Congrats for the baby! Your words and feelings are beautiful and plenty of happiness! God bless you!

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  3. samia

    your baby is adorable.. and I love her clothes.. and your wrds are amazing.. Its really nice to read what I couldnt put to words myself.. I was overwhelmed completely.. :) and yes I agree with maeghan your daughter will love reading this someday.. best of luck with your full time job..

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  4. kelly ann

    You’re an amazing mama. And Rylee is just so sweet – that second photo of her looking at the camera? Ohmyword – heart melting! :)

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  5. Liz

    Good for you, mama! Rylee is SO cute. I’m happy for you that you’re enjoying motherhood. If as a mom you’re half as amazing as the artist you are, you will be just fine striking that perfect balance in no time :)

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  6. Susanna

    rylee is precious!!! and it’s so amazing how we can just enter into a whole new life when our babies are born – one that gels them & us & everything into a beautiful NEW life…not that we’ve given up who we are…but instead we’re fulfilled in ways we never imagined! God bless you & your sweetie :)

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  7. Giulia

    OMG! Rylee is SO cute and she’s growing so fast. You’re so lucky she seems to be so calm and quiet, not like that babies that cry all the time. Rylee is a diamond.

    God bless you, your husband and Rylee.

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  8. Amanda

    LOVE the pics-as usual! Thank you for being so honest about motherhood…I struggled for a long time trying to find a good balance between my family and my separate, creative self. It’s a tough job but it can be done! :)

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  9. kellyhicks

    I’ve been thinking about this lately too (I’m 16 weeks pregnant) and am nervous, excited, anxious, and scared about what my life will look like when he or she arrives. Thanks for being so honest! Nice to hear what it’s really like! p.s. Rylee is adorable!

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