First things first.  I started a blog for Rylee! Well, a tumblr that is….with heaps of photos documenting her first year of life.  I can’t believe we are already nearing it’s end!  Was I not just updating my blog with my growing belly?  It feels like yesterday. I always kindly nodded and smiled to those moms that told me “oh, enjoy it, they grow up so fast”.  All the while thinking “How fast can it REALLY go?”  But here I am, one of those moms, not wanting to believe that my baby girl is turning one, ONE, in just a few weeks.  So to new and expecting moms…relish in those tiny little newborn fingers and toes, because before you know it, those toes will be walking and those fingers will be pulling at your leg saying “mama, up!”  They really do grow up so fast.  I wish I would have started this tumblr for Rylee on day one, but of course, the idea came to me just a few weeks ago so I’ve been playing some ridiculous catch up.  But it’s been fun working backwards and remembering all the milestones we’ve watched her conquer.  I’ve laughed and I’ve cried at all the many memories we’ve made this year with our little peanut.  It’s been the best year.

As I was browsing through some of my daily reads today, I came across Promise’s post HERE and it really struck a chord with me.  If you don’t know Promise…she’s a gem.  One of the sweetest, most talented, business savvy girls I know.  For real.  Reading through her post, I was reminded of the fear I had prior to giving birth to Rylee.  Our pregnancy was unplanned, so at first, a whole slew of conflicting emotions filled my heart.  I have always had an entrepreneurial spirit with lots of dreams.  When we found out we were expecting, fear was the first emotion that hit.  Yes, Sam and I had talked about kids and we both knew we certainly wanted them.  Maybe even a handful of them!  But NOW!?  I wasn’t sure I was ready or prepared.  It always felt like this fantastical idea that would one day come true….but when that little stick read positive, reality struck and fear crept in.  I wasn’t sure if I was prepared to be a mom just yet or ready to put my career aspirations on hold.  There was still so much I wanted to do!  All I knew for sure is that I wanted to be there for my baby, and if that meant sacrificing my work, I would do it for her.

Little did I know that she would be the best thing to happen to me…in life and work! The loved that filled me when I held her for the first time was like nothing I have ever experienced.  She has bought a joy to my life that is irreplaceable….and to think, I was scared of this.  Sure, sacrifices have been made and I still don’t have my work/life balance perfectly figured out.  I’d be lying if I said trying to find that balance is easy, because it not, at all.  But I can say that I know where my priorities lie and Rylee has motivated me to make the hard decisions and really focus on the things that I truly want to pursue career-wise.  I work harder in the times that I can, and I have never had more focus on my goals than I do now.  I know it may take me longer to achieve them, but I am ok with that, because I know that the time I am investing in my daughter is far more valuable.   I’ve never stopped dreaming, and in fact, I’ve never dreamed bigger!  When I think back on my fears, I see now that joy has completely replaced them.   God has a way of knowing what is best for us, weather we see it or not.  I’m so glade He blessed us with Rylee, in the timing that he did.  Life is so much better with her now a part of it.


  1. Katie

    Beautiful post! my baby girl, Adeline, is only 4 months old but i can definitely relate to what you’re saying already, especially with her 2 little teeth, new squeak and sounds every day, learning to grab things, rolling and scootching…it’s crazy! Where’d my infant go? She’s practically an adult! tis bittersweet

  2. Michelle

    This is such a beautiful post! I’m sure God has amazing plans for you and your family and I’m so happy you’re seeing the joy of them now. :)

  3. Kastles

    Aww you just gave me goosebumps reading that post! So beautiful and honest! And God always has a better and different plan than the plans we make for ourselves. Thanks for sharing! Have a lovely week Kelli!
    <3 Kastles

  4. Candice

    This is so true. Every part of it. They grow too fast. Way too fast. And God always has perfect timing. My son came at the most perfect time in my life. And while it’s not always easy being a mom, it’s always worth it.

  5. Amie @ Itsystitch

    This was a great post for me to read today, esp this ” God has a way of knowing what is best for us, weather we see it or not.” Thanks Kelli! Promise actually lives locally to me and she speaks at the local PUG photographers meetings on occasion. I love her blog!

  6. Lindsay

    A Tumblr for your little one is an awesome idea! I read her post as well and gosh she is just awesome huh…(We actually go to the same church in Chandler, AZ) I took it as a reminder that even though I thought my life would look very different at this point (I’m single, no kids) like you said, “God has a way of knowing what is best for us, weather we see it or not.”

  7. Nikki

    Love this post like crazy! I can totally relate. ADORABLE little Rylee logo you have going on there:)

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